
When I looked at it in more detail, I noticed it was a manul! I tried to tell about that to Salma and Sargon quietly, but then the manul noticed me and ran away. Hande has a smug smile on her face when she speaks, ”I tried to climb to see for the city, but then I saw some animal on a branch above me. Hande, tell what happened then!” Salma shrieks excitedly. Is there something you want to tell us?” Also Helena nods encouraginly at the girls, so they start to explain in unison, ”Yes! We were in the backyard with Sargon, playing.” Salma continues the story on her own, ”Later Hande wanted to climb a tree and she climed pretty high. We're so used to talking in Hongas with äiti that we forgot.” Khanum Hakimi just smiles, ”No need to apologize, I understand. Both of them exclaim at the same time: ”Äiti, äiti, et ikinä arvaa, mitä me –³” Before the girls can carry on Helena interrupts them with a determined, but a lenient tone, ”Darlings, what have I told you about the use of a language in which all the members of a group don't understand?” The faces of the girls are filled with realisation and Hande switches to Karnassian, ”Sorry, khanum Hakimi. Her firstborn, 8-year-old Hande, is the first to reach the adults, but her sister Salma is there just a moment after Hande. When Helena opens the door of her studio for khanum Hakimi, her daughters immediately run towards her, khanum Hakimi's son on their tail.

She literally did everything in her power to help these kids secure a brighter future while remaining in the shadows. She didn't have to die to prove she was a good mother who cared and love her children, because she showed that several times over and over again. Personally, I forgave this woman the moment she retrieved the ropes in ch37 so the farm wouldn't know exactly where the children escaped from. I love how Isabella adopted Emma's ideals and spirit in order to go against the system and rally everyone else up to accomplish the impossible. Not only did she agree to become Grandma to help the children when they eventually returned to GF in two years, but Isabella also decreased the number of shipments in order to produce higher quality goods to make up for those that escaped, which is exactly what Emma believed would happen once she decided to leave the kids four and under behind.

Yes, sacrificing herself to protect Emma and that other girl from the demon was very admirable of her and helped with her redemption, but she didn't have to die from it! (hell, if emma could survive being stabbed then so could isabella, right? damn plot armor! ) To me, I just feel like it wasn't necessary, especially now after learning what we just did from this extra chapter.

I literally have not listened to her lullaby since ch177 dropped because I'm scared I'll become a tearful mess. Seriously though, her death is still something I'm not over.
